Today I feel different. Difference is happiness, isn't it? For me, at least. I love the company of other people, but I also love being alone with myself. But I don't get it why I get terribly lonely sometimes, and I long for other people. Sometimes, I feel the need to be alone, away from others but at the same time, don't want to be completely left behind. Just thinking about it make me cringe. I guess it's accepting the fact that if they left, it means that there's no one that cares enough to stay. I drive people away, but it's when they do turned their backs on me, that I realize that I need their presence badly.
It's like looking at your own reflection in the mirror and you're freaked because suddenly, it walked away. And no one's left, but your original self.
